I found my Marshal &hearts

This might be a weird post to have in my blog. Although I started this blog as an online diary for the world to read. So here you go.

So I have been in a serious relationship for about 4.5 years now. The guy I have been with is my daughter's father and we live together. He is my first serious boyfriend and hopefully husband LOL
We're not getting married yet, but that is another step for our relationship to take. I was fortunate enough to have had a glimpse of my boyfriend's past, and the past was not great. I was his first  real relationship that lasted for more than six months. Every one's turnaround period was two weeks, or the longest was 6 months. He told me that they hardly ever saw each other, so if you would count the number of days in the six month period. Its still about two weeks.

I always doubted myself.I always think I'm not pretty enough, or I'm not as cool as the other or in this case the "former" girls. To me they we're pretty. At one point in our relationship, I did question myself. Is this even worth it? Am I really here? whats wrong with them? Why aren't they here anymore? Is something wrong with them? or is there something wrong with me? All these insecurities needed to go away, because it was affecting my relationship with him. As any girlfriend out there knows this, is that, in the back of our minds, we always think someone is after our man. Am I right ladies? There is not a single relationship out there that is perfect. Mine is not. To others, this post might not make sense, but to some, I know it does.

So if you're like me who had doubts and insecurities, Just think about the fact that you are the one that remains. The others are just a mere ghost from the past. You have to tell yourself that you're the one that lasted, and why? Because you're the one. Trust is the key, honesty comes in second. If you trust that person enough, his honesty will come out just like that *snaps fingers*

Men..oh what can I say. You guys are amazing. Girls, you might not notice this, but not every single guy out there is a douche bag. A lot of them are actually a "MARSHALL". Marshal is a fictional character from "How I met your Mother" played by actor Jason Segel(Forgetting Sarah Marshal guy).
Marshall is the guy who knows what a hot girl looks like, but would he hit on her? NO!
Marshall is the guy whom you'd ask if that girl's rack is awesome and he'd agree without any hesitation (He wont be afraid to what your reaction is gonna be)
Marshall is the guy who knows how to surprise his girlfriend/wife who is impossible to surprise.

Marshall is a big teddy bear, whom at the end of the night, you want to stay with.
Marshall is not gay, nor a big pussy. He's just man enough to be in touch with his emotions.
Marshall is the guy who would high five you whenever you have an awesome dump!

As to end this post. I am not quite sure now where I was trying to go. Maybe all I can say is that, the guy you are with might be the good guy after all, his pasts is shadowing over it. You might need to take some layers off of him, and let him that good guy out. So...go find yourself your "MARSHALL"

Ellie and Carl
from the movie "UP"

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